“The Grief Monster” by Terri

This grief monster inside of me will never leave. An ever-present companion I don’t want and didn’t invite. It displays different colors, personalities and moves from place to place. Like a chameleon, always changing.

When in my heart, it is kind and caring. A beautiful shade of red, it gives me warm, wonderful memories of my daughter and fills me with love and happiness. But when in my head, it is a demon. A dark, black hole that swallows up every ounce of joy, covering it in a heavy cloak of sadness and despair.

It’s as if this companion gives me moments of peace and joy only for the sole purpose of stealing them away again………and again……..and again.